Sometimes

Sometimes

Deep inside my thumping heart

This happiness is choking me up

Making me uneasy and perturbed

Leaving me nervous

Sometimes

If you listen carefully to my loud laughs

You may hear a soft whimper of fear

Fear that one day when I wake up

You won’t be here

Sometimes

Late at night I would put my head on your chest

Just to hear the rhythm of your heartbeats

To remind myself

That I am not just dreaming in my sleep

Sometimes

When you run your fingers through my hair

And look me deep in the eyes

I have to try hard holding back the tears

And trust for once that this is for real

Your words matter.

I know that love is shown in deeds, not merely words but sometimes what is expressed in words does mean a lot. You may say that you don’t mean it or you were saying it when you were angry or you were just saying it for fun but these words stays. It stays with the person who heard or read it, whether the words were meant for them or for someone else. Directly or indirectly. It stays in the heart. Words go through the ears to the brain and dwell at the heart. You may say that you shouldn’t keep anything in the heart but it is there and it is not easy to put aside. Similarly, if something nice is being said – it stays with you and you would always remember it.

Words that you uttered also can be a manifestation of what kind of person you are. Whether you are a weak person, a wise person, an angry person or whatever other kind there are. If you are in a relationship yet you are talking with another person in a flirty way – what does that shows of you? Or if you are flirting with your friend’s partner – what characteristic of a person are you demonstrating? Don’t turn around now and says that it meant nothing. When you process the thoughts in your head and then express it with your words – it surely mean something.

And all this matters. Because your words matter.

Mirror

For me, relationship is like a mirror. Whatever action, reaction or non-action that one is taking in a relationship should always be reflected upon from time to time.

Put yourself in the other person’s shoes and ask your heart how you would feel if the same is being done to you. If you wouldn’t want to be treated in a certain way, do not treat the other person in that way.

I think this is only fair, no? You cannot possibly expect people to respect you if you do not know how to give respect. Or expect the other person to be thoughtful when you are not.

And when you do or say things that are hurting someone else, remember that one day you may perhaps feel the same pain as well, if not worst.

What goes around comes around.  So love wholeheartedly so that you may also be loved wholeheartedly.

Reflect.